Things That Aren't My Fault

Your failed dreams and past mistakes
Your failed marriage/s
Your lack of closure on what you wanted in the past
Your belief that anyone my age who's childless and never been married is crazy (instead of selective or just a victim of bad romantic luck or dedication to a career and ideals)
Someone dying that you loved
Your wanting something you can't have
Your lack of financial stability or friends or travel or knowledge of anything beyond your immediate situation
Your unfinished personal business
Your desire for someone out of your league or under the legal drinking age
Your inability to see the truth about yourself or undertand art or others
Your narcissism, dullness, utter lack of a sense of humor or character
Your emotional unavailability, dishonesty or misrepresentation
Your erectile dysfunction or midlife crisis
Your desire to dwell continually in the past, musically, emotionally, or otherwise
Your inability to tolerate intense emotions, honesty, reality, real caring, real engagement with reality
Your superficiality, unawareness of privilege, insecurity, dissatisfaction, depression, need for submission and control, feeling threatened by intelligence or education or physical imperfection

Things that are, in part, or wholly, my fault:

Honesty
Imperfection
Escapism and stupid optimism, sometimes
Need for self-expression over all else, sometimes
Anxiety and pessimism, sometimes
Intolerance of shallowness, flakiness, lying, stupidity
Overindulgence
Hypersensitivity, sometimes
Perseveration
Curiosity
Workaholism and tying up my identity too much with what I do
Bitterness, sometimes, and fatigue, occasionally
Fear of being unloved, unvalued
Overthinking

Is there a point where it balances out?

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"Don't bring me down...."  - Jeff Lynne

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